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oyasumi nasai~*

a night to remember

diD my nails at 3am and zZzz'd..lucky it didn smuDge..woke up at 113o rushed to piRamid to pick up my shoes and some mischellanies..went to sayang to get my haiR done..went theRe wif my allyboO~* to da palace of golden horses..felt so underdressed when i got there..girls in gowns..reinassance cuRls and make up like cake icing! keke..nvm..lucky i didn wear black..got a watermelon dress..light green & p!nk..stood out pretty well..took tons of pics wif evry1..1st one was wif d bois! my freaking camera battery died ok -.- keke..me an amanda posed 4 like tons of pics wif guys just taking turns to stand between us..aahaha..was fun..got some pics wif teachers..i stil thnk kamalas d sexiest teacheR..she said me looking so good was a crime..aWw...gonna miss her..she cried like mad at d end..suprisingly a lot of guys did too..swanic broke into tears..all d gals were like 'im gonna cry,im gonna cry'...i was like..oookaaay..feel pretty odd nt feeling sad like evry1 else but maybe im just used to parting wif ppl? i mean..im still gonna call u ppl out yumcha next year so..? *confused* gama was fun..chaRis was amazingly pretty..so was Qing..ok..all d gaMma gals were hotstuffs ok ;p *giggles* hey..all d guys agreed didnt dey..well.. ;p actually got a pic wif my ex , yans , wore a decent pale blue dress..had barely nethin to eat..coz d skool doesnt cater 4 vegetarians which make up bout onli 1% of the population +.+ went home late after kissie huggie-ing every1..perving guys on a rampaGe! reached home bout 1o30..

for more graduation pics check out my friendster ya!
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reached home..appeased d parents wif my gRaduation papers & certs & year book den wnet 4 dinneR wif muh sayang..jingles and bitchee boi shaDdzz..went for steamboat poRridge near 14..yummyneSs..baby feeds me too much :) were both gonna b fat & happy if i dun step in soon..we can b hoT & happy..d much rather prefer dat..tehee..im just tripping..neways was nice..finally got jings his lighters..reached hoem at 13o..scraped d makeup off my face an konked..i slept well ^^
 
*bRi&chen the evil panDas woh love chocs!*my bitch senGchee &jingles pan bluR..akaka*

sPm 22 days
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to the graduating class of 05!
love ya'll
thou i dun really 'fit' in our age group or skool cliques..or get along wif girls i dun even noe..i sure had a good time getting to meet ppl i would have nvr met otherwise..smart ppl aRent nerds..dey just got their priorities right :)  
-logging off-
bRi

ur my onli onli one

  
                            c H e n  +  b R i

• blue&yellow - the useD -
• memory - sugarcult -
• ocean avenue - yellowcaRd -
• only one -  yellowcaRd -
• letters to you - finch -
• on fire - switchfoot -
• hands down - dashboard confessionals -
• the everglow -mae-
• everything - lifehouse -
• collide - howie day -
• paperthin hymn - anberlin -
• 23 - jimmy eat world -

cant remember d rest at d mo..highly recommendeD by bweeeee..so download em if u like..especially anbrerlin..neways will keep aDding wheneveR i remember any..
take caRe ppl
-bwee-

~Youll sit alone forever..If you wait for the right time..What are you hoping for?Im here and now Im ready..Holding on tight..Dont give away the end..The one thing that stays mine~

heya ppl..been really busy recently..so much goin on with spm coming round..been busy with claSses,reorganizing my things,layaning friends anD piecing back my life..oh ya..taking caRe of my boi too :) spent d whole weekenD with him..jiNgzy haD his bday anD we ppl went up to genting at like 2am..hope ur happy jinGs.!!ive got eyebags to show 4 it..met aivee an junee too..eRrico didn get to come :( hadn seen my bitchy seng chee in like 4eva! miSsed u biatchy :D
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neways..havn haD time to blog so was pretty disgusted to come online in skool an finD essays of insults in my bloggie tagboaRd..i mean dun dese ppl hav anything better to do den scrutinize all my friendster accs all my pics an write feedback on ALl of dem? no wondEr dey haf no time to reflect upon themselves an prolly look in d mirror an realise wat dey c looking back at dem aRe just saD lil insecuRe kids with nothing better to do
i noe ur from my skooll...srikl high class bitches wannabes..think theyre so tough..puHhlleeess...if u hate me so much why dun u just walk up to me one day anD slap me?maybe then u wouldn b such pussies.anD if ur smart id advise u nt to bring a group of ppl coz den id get a paRty so pls..until u get ur f*ckin balls back dun talk so much okie..u memang tak layak
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                                                               IDIOTS

time:123o (17.9)
song:bodyrockeRs-i like the way u move
mood:hungoveR..aspirin pls

       

muRder on the dance flooR

two days b4 my trials & i went cluBbing at atmos -.+well if it counts 4 anythin my daddy askeD me 2 go & since it was just wif da faM'lay ppl..its okie,rite?
was with my sayang,jinGles & eRrico..went 2 c d MelC showcase which my dad had tickets 4..sponsored by carlsberg so..we got into d VIP louge and haD free flow of beer :D got to watch d closing dance performance an model search finals too earlier..

 went back after closing hours anD got stopped by blardi cops..corrupt jeRks..jingzy got hustleD 3oo jsut coz hes a P and doesn want his license suspenDed as its dropping in 2 mths..bRibe reasonably wei!! crazy cops.msia *siGh* slept in c caR..zZzz..reacheD home at 4 and  barely maDe it to d door in a straight line..


....teen drinking is really baD ;p *stoneD after a nite out*.....
 sayang got me a pweety braceleT from diamonds & platinum..so sweet of him..scared to wear it lest i breaks ;p no moRe drinking till sPm! an im serious dis time *.* keke..cant wait to go cRazy after its over..woke up dis mornin hungover..gonna go guzzle some wateR

........thanks cHen..love d braceleT *muaksies*..............

todloo ppl~*
bweee

   

just gotta make d best of what ive got..when ive got it

*cRosses fingeRs*

inferiority/superiority complex

......give me direction..id give  everything.......

went back by 12..couldn sleep..eRic makes me feel kinda worried bout my own life..tot happineSs was contagious not doldrums :/ im 16 sitting 4 sPm an SAT soon and suddenly realise i donnoe wat to do wif my life..like i haf no passion for anything coz i could probably do anything if i wanted but i dont want anything..its scary not knowing wats gonna happen & we find solace in things dat seem certain..i tot i found it in people..if dey haf potentially wat i need den id love dem..enrapture dem coz i wanna keep dem..i just noe dat deyd love me..but theres no certainty in dat is there..& the strange thing is dat once dey make u feel certainty,u freak..bcoz its too much,too soon..fight & flight mode kicks in and im gone..its such paradoxicalities that confuses me..the things about plans are dat dey have to b tailored to suit circumstances..den it isnt really a plan anymore..hate feeling so helpleSs..erics rite..im just like him..somebody who was forced to grow up 2 fast and expect so much more from life..its so haRd when u want it all..i want it all..
-deep and meaningless-
bri

time:3am (11.9.o5)
song:all the things she said -tatu
mood:cant sleep..cant breathe..

............passion is haRd work for those who dont have any..............

I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?

I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out
Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me
Nobody else so we can be free

All the things he said, All the things he said
Running through my head, Running through my head
Running through my head
All the things he said, All the things he said
Running through my head, Running through my head
All the things he said

This is not enough

a not so lil guRl with biG dreams & staRs in her doe eyed lovelies
.........................tell me wat i need to do to get there............................
......................................id do it in a heartbeat......................................
.......................................but where is there?......................................

-bleeding thru-
fragments of bri

school schmool

trails next week..no ones in school..even in delta? *gasps* wat the hell was i doin there tday -.- haD some 'gema merdeka' thing plus i onli hav two perioDs on friday..well,haD to come 4 mmp..shabbily choreographed due to time constaints & guys trying to get all d attn..dun even noe why im even in it *looks about* lidat lerh..nvm..gueSs ur graduation legacy is supposed to suck..

nehows i took some pics wif my ally boo~* haD so much fun acting dumb! nice to b a kid sometimes..declared to on by stareRs dat were clinically insane.. ^^ funnnnnnky neSs..love my boo! shes da best! onli old time fwen whos nvR back stabbed me b4! true blue fwen! love ya~*

  
supRised our form teacher pn sanizah an heny yong with two cakes afteR school..was pretty fun considering it was a claSs thingie..my boi came to teman me..we haD mcflurry an fries..yuMmy!
two tuitions cancelled..so went for my eng class at 8.oo..feeling d stress creeping on..sPm *sigh*

neways mwe wanna go Zzzzzzz now..piGgishneSs..nite ppl
*muakeRoos*



-bwee boo-

port dickson : anti-climax

slept at 4 am yesterday after cming back from pD an layanin d neT 4 a while..woke up at 9 in d moRn 4 literature claSs..started 'the importance of being eRnest'..such a witty play with loTs of amusing puns..im playing gwendolyn! shallow elitish aristocrat..tehee..may lee's so cuTe wif all her algernon 'biscuits & scones* thingie..esther,quizzie & naGasari..d whole SJ lit. group R such lovely intelligent ppl..actually able 2 undeRstand what theyre reading..haRd to find nowadays..noisy bunch of chicks..xept 4 chachai,poor thing, onli guy theRe..or was it gay? i cant remember..sj an theyre gay clan +.+ zZzz..trying not to sleep again till tnite..gonna b studying bio ltR *siGh* trials afteR d hols..killjoy..gotta call d sexays out sometime 4 a movie..promised colin d..gotta layan me guRls too so..hoPe 2 keep bz dis we3k:)

enjoy d laSt holiDays foRm fiveRs!

gotta remembeR to study thou *dot dot dot*

(( bRis frienDster bloGgie - poRt dickson ))

haPpy holidays eveRy1~*

~Write down,to remind yourself on how it can be
Heartstrings, you're tugging at my heartstrings
Helpless, I have become so helpless to your touch
touch me somehow
Restless, you leave me restless
breathless wait for me~

a lovers tiffle..is like a trivial pursuit..carried out with naught to gain..
gueSs its a loveRs luxury when your in close proximity
but like daDdy eric told me..dun waste time fighting
coz
once 'you r apart you'd wish every moment..
was a happy moment and every second spent fighting was another second wasted'
but he must b awaRe that distance,is a loveR pedestal
..glorifying perfection if not defining it..
i dont want to fight nemore..im so sick of this feeling..
its like were happy one second then it all crumbles down
with the mention of any sensitive topic..
feels like being burnt alive..
i dont need this..not now
dont do this to me...pls...

~And if these are my parting words
Then this, my last request
Hold me here, until I sleep
If I burn, then I burn for you~

-logging off-
broken bri

daTe:16.o7.o5
moOd:jumpyboo!
song:basement jaxx-romeo

my fatty boo~*


................mesmerizing..................

chiokees back from d clinic! his bladder infections better i pressume..need to wait an see..just noe dat hes glaD to b back..getting all cuddly wuddly an manja :3 showered him down an let him prance bout my room..actually got to take a nap with him without getting at least 1oo scratches -.- tehee..geuss d isolation at d clinic has reformeD him..well..thou he still walks into me in d showeR hes definitely much more amiable as a pet! hes gotten soooo big! not fat..but big..neways hope his bald patches which were 4 d drips grow back soon..he looks oDd @.@


.........my fatty~ chiokeRs..so nice an soft ! ! haPpy 2 b home~*........


date:15.7.o5
moOd:emo-ing
song:full blown rose-in the light

"+" in the light "+"
Heaven hoped you’d come and change me
Out of that, just make me whole
Lift me up and recreate me
And help me overcome myself
Lead me from hell

I’m rising up, I’m moving on
Give me strength to carry on
I feel the light upon my face
I hear the angels’ words of grace
My broken wings will never fly
Lift me up and justify
I’m standing up, I’m standing out
I feel the warmth come crashing down

Lift me up
Lead me from this place
Let your love be mercy on my face
Rising up, I’ve changed before your eyes
Out of darkness, standing in the light

 

cHen...hapPy 7th anniveRsary :) thou we didn get to spend it tgt im suRe we can make up 4 it at pD dis weekend ;D cant wait! *muaksies* u R whats best 4 me..u get the best of me..love ya so..
we can make d distance..if we want to
.+.bRicHen.+.


day:14.7.o5
moOd:perky
song:lene:its your duty

bRis recent fetish *licks lips*
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im goin gaGa 4 shoelacies~* gowsh..mwe just wanna buy a hanDful of dem just to string to my closet +.= i onli got one paiR of white sketcheRs (im a killer stilleto giRl by rule of thumb) an im constantly changing d laces..eveRy1 think its funky neways so..Ha! like mismatching my laces..adding beadies..u noe..funky doRy thingamajiGs bRi would do..keke..time to spaRk a new trend neways..
trenDs r something to set..not to follow ;p
akaka

-logGing off-
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bwee d lace junkie of d mo


day:13.7.o8
moOd:stoneR ni -.-
song:lacuna coil-daylight dancer

~*~l3o installation~*~

i have a new near to daily bloggie at friendster but it doesnt support much pics or java so im still suing this one :) this is still my all time picture album journal so keep updating yea ppl~* ill b more regular if it gets more happening..no one leaves comment nowadays -.- neways heRes d installation (l3o) write up


susHineSs...onli jinGzy can!! keke (susHi kinG-piRamiD) satuRday!

(( bRis fRiendsteR bloGgie - installation ))

enjoy ya ppl~*
.+.bRi.+.